Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- Blood Day.

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Blood day today so we had to get ready early and set off at 10am.

We arrived at the Park and Ride a  poor lady was all upset because she didnt know how you got a ticket. Ray went through the barrier with our car and then went back to help her. She got her ticket and she got through to park as well.

The Motorhome section was filled up. I dont know why on a Wednesday this happens. Is it cheaper on a Wednesday on the Ferries or Tunnel. They were a lot of foreign M/Homes .

We caught the Hospital Bus and was soon into the hospital. I didnt wait to lone before I was called in and my bloods taken.

So we got back to the car and went shopping in ASDA. The prices seem a lot cheaper I was surprised so I have stocked up. All the healthy things I could find. Not one sweet or chocolate went into the trolley. Honest.

Soon home and packed away and lunch was done as well. You keep looking at the phone and willing it not to ring. Hoping your bloods are OK.

Jeremy Steel had sent me a Email saying how pleased he was that my Chemo was working I had emailed to thank him for finding it for me as it has given me a new start again. Maybe another year before I need Line 5 .

Then I realised as I was cooking dinner that the phone hadnt rung. You can then relax –Your Bloods Must be good. So Chemo Friday Hooray.!!!

So not a lot happened today just a quiet day. I like those days

Great news from Australia on a new drug http://au.news.yahoo.com/video/national/watch/18258309/world-first-mesothelioma-drug-trial/

Karen Banton, the CEO of the Bernie Banton Banton Foundation says she is excited about a new drug treatment that could save lives.
This new clinical trial is exciting, and all at the Bernie Banton Centre are to be congratulated.
Prof van Zandwijk says he does not want to raise false hope, but he is cautiously optimistic the treatment will work.
I agree wholeheartedly, but this trial does give hope, and that cannot be a bad thing!
Rod Smith

Karen is excited I think the whole world of Mesothelioma is excited I wish it every success we will be watching xx

Rays Blog  http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/31/wednesday-53/

Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- A cold wet day -where has the sun gone ???

Photo: The future Kitchen with your own vegetable garden which grows food without using harmful fertilizers and pesticides. In the future you will grow what you eat and eat what your grow.

The future Kitchen with your own vegetable garden which grows food without using harmful fertilizers and pesticides. In the future you will grow what you eat and eat what your grow. I think we should make room for this in every kitchen now fresh vegetables and herbs would be so nice and healthy.

Well I have slept most of the afternoon as well as having a good nights sleep. I really wish I could get some strength back but at least Im allowing the Chemo to work so it cant be a bad thing.

It was so cold today -wet and windy after all the sunshine of late you cant believe it can get so cold in summer.

Anyway the garden has been watered and the plants have grown so healthy this year as if its trying to put on its best show for me.

Im not enjoying washing my rubbish up really that’s crazy but Im doing as I have been told.

I kept asking if Rays Heart problem was anything to do with Asbestos damage and they kept saying no and then I have read this report today.

Press ReleaseCardiovascular Disease mortality among British Asbestos Workers (1971-2005)

Accepted 6 February 2012

  • Published Online First 2 April 2012

Abstract

Objectives Asbestos is an inflammatory agent, and there is evidence that inflammatory processes are involved in the development of cardiovascular disease. Whether asbestos is a risk factor for cardiovascular disease has not been established. The objective of this study was to investigate cardiovascular disease mortality in a large cohort of workers occupationally exposed to asbestos.

Methods Cardiovascular disease mortality in a cohort of 98 912 asbestos workers, with median follow-up of 19 years, was analysed. Unadjusted and smoking-adjusted standardised mortality ratios (SMRs) were calculated. The association between indicators of asbestos exposure and mortality was analysed with Poisson regression models, for deaths occurring during the period 1971–2005.

Results Altogether 15 557 deaths from all causes, 1053 deaths from cerebrovascular disease and 4185 deaths from ischaemic heart disease (IHD) occurred during follow-up. There was statistically significant excess mortality from cerebrovascular disease (SMR: men 1.63, women 2.04) and IHD (SMR: men 1.39, women 1.89). Job and birth cohort were associated with the risk of cerebrovascular and IHD mortality in the Poisson regression model including sex, age, smoking status, job, cohort and duration of exposure. For IHD only, duration of exposure was also statistically significant in this model.

Conclusions Cerebrovascular and IHD mortality was significantly higher among these asbestos workers than in the general population and within the cohort mortality was associated with indicators of asbestos exposure. These findings provide some evidence that occupational exposure to asbestos was associated with cardiovascular disease mortality in this group of workers.

http://oem.bmj.com/content/early/2012/03/05/oemed-2011-100313

I wish they would listen and they could have done another scan for Ray. Its because they dont scan the whole body when looking for problems that they miss the whole story.

I have had many Xrays and Scans and operation to build a new urethra due to my kidney yet they missed the nasty in me growing away that could have been found so much earlier.

Im beginning to think we should all have a body scan as a checkup if you wish to know as everything is easier to treat if found early.

Anyway on a happier note I have bloods tomorrow and then Chemo Friday the fight is still on.

Rays Blog http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/30/tuesday-61/

Living With Mesothelioma-My Diary-A very windy one but we missed the storms.

It was so sunny from morning to night today but the wind has been blowing.

My very thinning hair isnt liking the wind, but it does make it look thicker as it is blown all over the place.

The has been Lightning strikes across the United Kingdom but we never had any in East Kent so we were so lucky.
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I put the washing out on the line and it dried within half an hour. We used to call that blanket drying weather when we had blankets. Now its all Duvets but we cant get them into washing machines.

Had lunch and then a nice run out as Ray wanted a watering can for filling the M/Home up when on sites and the water tap is awkward to get to so it isnt always easy to use the hose pipe to refill.

I just walked Louis around at the garden centre but Ray couldnt find a flatish one as they are more shaped and on the round style. We need to get it in a back box.

So back to B&Q and he found what he wanted there. I walked Louis onto the rugby field so he could play with his ball but he acted weird as there were school boys sitting around. He gets sort of shy at times like that. So he had a bit of a run but was happy when I turned around to go and meet Ray as he came out of the shop.

As I got into the car the door blew shut on my swollen ankle Ouch!!!!! It doesnt hurt as it is numb anyway but the swelling wasnt wanted.

Got home and sat down both of us are tired from the weekend so its nice to just relax.

Cooked Salmon for dinner and Louis had some as well. I never knew he liked salmon.

We have had the new Recycling bins delivered today. so many Im in a muddle so I will have to practice this week and hope I get it right. It seems as if I will have to do a special rubbish wash up as everything will need to be clean, no putting anything out in sacks so It will even mean washing bins up as well. I wonder if we could get a reduction in rates as we are doing all the work now.

Blue lidded recycling bin or box

For recycling glass, tins, cans and plastic

Red handled recycling insert or box

For recycling paper and card

Black household waste bin

For other items which cannot be recycled

Food waste caddy and bin

For recycling raw and cooked leftover food

Green lidded garden waste bin

The garden waste service remains unchanged

So many colour codes  https://www.canterbury.gov.uk/bins-recycling/changes-to-your-waste-collection-service/

As if my life is complicated enough, But I will soon get the hang of it or my rubbish will pile up where they wont take it away because I have made mistakes !!!

The wind has calmed down now and the sun is shinning I have really loved this summer even if we couldnt always get away it has been the sort of summer you dream of.

Prince Charles and Camilla visited Whitstable Oyster Festival then he went onto Chatham.

The Prince of Wales was given a tour of Chatham Historic Dockyard’s newest attractions on his visit to Kent today.

Prince Charles and The Duchess of Cornwall spent time at the Dockyard

I hope all the Asbestos has gone from there now. That was where my story started as Ray worked there.

While Prince Charles was being given a short tour and met with volunteers and staff, The Duchess of Cornwall visited the Railway Workshop to meet young children taking part in a school holiday workshop.

Lilly Mayor, seven, from Rainham, was selected to present the Duchess with flowers on her arrival at the pirate playtimes session.

She said: “I was really excited and really happy. I have never met a Royal before and I really wanted to give her the roses.”

The royal couple then both visited the No.1 Smithery gallery which opened in 2010.

There was just enough time for Camilla to view the photographic exhibition Exploring Antarctica: The Final Expeditions of Scott and Shackleton.

At the end of the visit, they both unveiled a plaque to commemorate the day and Prince Charles was presented with a children’s swing for the newborn Prince George. It was made at the Dockyard using timbers from the Victorian sloop HMS Gannet and rope from the ropery.

http://www.kentonline.co.uk/medway_messenger/news/royal-visit-to-dockyard-3977/

I had a rope from the ropery up my stairs at our house in Lordswood, it was great as hand rail.

Rays Blog http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/29/monday-50/

Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- a weekend away at Barton Point.

Well we are back from a wonderful weekend in the sun.

It was wonderful as we arrived at Barton Point on the Isle of Sheppy, even we did take a wrong turning in a one way street. I said we didnt need the sat/nav silly of me as road layouts change  over the years.

We went round the one way system and came back and filtered left and were on our way again.

Arriving at Barton point and saw we were sharing the site with a Circus.

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We traveled on to our site and met all our friends that were already there.

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I made dinner and we ate that and washed up then went out and sat in a circle and nattered away until it started to get dark and so back to our Motor Home for a great nights sleep. We all sleep better in our vans, must be the fresh air.

Saturday we woke up to another glorious sunny day and it got warmer and warmer so we set off for a walk.

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We came round by the back of the Circus and out onto the road where we sat by they lake and then I saw this dead Plaice,

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Larry came along and told us the site hadnt open the sluice gates in the very hot weather we had. They didnt realise the sluice was to circulate fresh water.

Actually the water is bracken water, a mixture of sea and river water. They thought the sluice was for flooding so they have lost a lot of fish for the fisher men who come there to fish.

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So there I sat looking at the poor fish.

We did cross over the road and had a look at the beach but even that has changed as they have made a steep beach for flood protection so we couldnt get down to the beach at this point.

Came back to the motorhome and had lunch and a snooze but we did sit out and be sociable and found out what everyone did for the day. Some went to the Dockyard and read all the history of Sheppy (it was named after all the sheep on the Island in the past)

At this point I will put in their website the history is wonderful as they played a very big part in the wartime. http://www.sheppeywebsite.co.uk/

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Here is a map of where we were and what it was in the wartime they only finished last year to clear the bombs etc etc .

Then last night we had a terrific storm as did most of the UK. When  your out in fields and by water seems more scary, but it was so pretty watching the lightening as it passed us and went out to sea.

This morning we woke up to hundreds of Scouts enjoying the lake with their sailing boats. The wind blew a lot out of the boat and they were crashing into each other.

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They left in a coach that bought more back as there is a huge gathering of Scouts  at Detling.

A huge welcome to the 270+ contingents at our International Jamboree

6,000 Guides, Scouts and their Leaders from every corner of the world are gathered at the Kent Show Ground for a week of friendship activities and adventure!

It is a fantastic event where Guides and Scouts are living and learning together.

For all the Guides and Scouts on site, they are having an amazing first-hand experience of multiculturalism in action. They also are interacting and participating with others from different cultures with different faith and social systems to build solidarity and understanding across cultural and geographical boundaries.

They are making new friends and sharing the fun of participating in activities and challenges with them as well as just enjoying and be in the company of like minded people.

This is the Kent International Jamboree!

30 Countries are participating!

We look forward to the raising of the flags of nations at our opening ceremony.

UntitledHow great is that but I wouldn’t like to look after so many young people as it is a huge responsibility but I admire the people that do. So after watching all the going ons we decided to come home this afternoon. It takes a while to get home and inpack and then cook a dinner.

The M/H is ready for next time love the life. Im sure it is what keeps me going as I seem to be able to forget all about my aches and pains and just have fun with my friends.

I have checked the Mesowarriors and there are a few in trouble but they have got through the weekend which is so good to hear that they are all safe.

         Rays Blog and how he sees the weekend   http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/28/sunday-56/

Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- This is my week off from Chemo and Im so happy.

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Had a great nights sleep and woke up at 7pm feeling very good. Coffee and breakfast and then I remebered the District Nurse was coming. OOps had to get washed and dressed. She knocked just after 8.30am I had her in the kitchen with my box of dressings ready and then as she was washing and dressing the Picc Line I realised I could see the bedroom door open. I prayed Ray would remember to put his trousers on at least before he walked down the passage.

Phew lucky but he did and said good morning to her.

She had been to me before but right back at the beginning of all this madness. She was amazed at how I looked and loved it that I looked so well.

So that was over for 3 weeks as I will have it done at the Hospital when i get the chemo next week.

I washed the shower out today and took the plug out and found so much hair I realised although I haven’t lost hair to the point of going bald but it is thinning again and going very fine and soft.

I have kept it longer this time so it doesnt notice.

After Lunch we went shopping on our own to The Range, I love that shop so much in there.

We then went over to Marks and Sparks to buy some food healthy of coarse.

Ray bought a load of cherries and strawberries –super foods –lovely.

It was a really pleasant ride out but of coarse when I got home I was tired and kept cat napping.

Phoned my friends and her daughter spoke to me so I answered all her questions about having Mesothelioma and she feels so much better talking about it to someone who has been through all the shock times as you first get diagnosed.

She has an appointment tomorrow so she will hear her pathway and she will phone me Bless her I feel so sorry for her and so young.

Rays Blog  http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/25/thursday-54/

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Living With Mesothelioma- My Diary- 4th Line Chemo 3 -A busy day in the garden

It has been so hot since early morning and I had a lot of gardening to do.

I had bought some new plants so I had to plant them in my wooden tub. I had planted marigolds but they are for winter planting and the bad winter has meant they just have not grown, they have a few flowers but I wasnt happy so I bought a Lavender and 2  Geraniums.

We didnt stop we kept cutting back and shaping up and weeding so now Im happy again.

This  has been taken at 9pm so much cooler now

This has been taken at 9pm so much cooler now

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That tall white plant has just flowered for the first time since I planted it 5 years ago -amazing

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So its all tidy again in the front I have to tackle the back , I have to get the garden ready as the new neighbour is having a High fence put in so the look of the garden will really change.

I made lunch and was shattered and chemo sweating that was pouring like water.

had a great relaxing afternoon and feel cooler now.

The Royal Baby was named tonight.

HRH PRINCE GEORGE ALEXANDER LOUIS OF CAMBRIDGE –Louis is thrilled he has been named after him. We are calling Louis Prince now.

A friend has phone and i cant believe the news that her daughter was diagnosed today that she has Mesothelioma –she is 40 years old. how cruel is that. I put together my web site and other bits but I bet they will all be to shocked to read and take it all in. Im here for her and will help them through these early days. I wish her all the luck in the world as she has 3 lovely young daughters. Boy do I hate theis disease. This has shocked me more than my own diagnosis.

Rays Blog http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/24/wednesday-52/

Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- 4th Line Chemo 3 — A very stormy night

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What a happy happy couple with their first born I have really enjoyed watching this on telly as the baby goes home.

We have had terrible storms over night and lots of rain. The lightening was fantastic over the Salt Marshes as we can see such a wide area from the bedroom and so we watched the dazzling display.

Lightning strikes across Kent

Torrential rain paired with thunder and lightning made the county skies light up throughout the early hours.

Multiple lightning strikes caused fires across the county last night with firefighters being called to several locations.

A home in Gillingham was one of the worst hit as fire crews were called at 4.25am Audley Avenue, Darland, after the house was struck by lightning.

Teams wearing breathing apparatus, used a hosereel to tackle the blaze in the ground floor living room of the two storey house. The family inside the house were alerted to the blaze by their smoke alarm and were forced to evacuated the hpuse and call the emergency services.

Thankfully there were no reports of any injuries.

Fire crews were also called to a house fire in Lympne, near Ashford.

http://www.kentnews.co.uk/news/multiple_lightning_strikes_cause_fires_across_kent_1_2292970

When we got up and although raining on and off it was still very warm.

So we have been in  the house most of the day. I have done a sort of spring clean and tidied the home with a very melted forehead.

Ray took Louis out
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I watched the hungry sailors this afternoon I love the way they collect up all local food and then invite people back to their boat to eat.

What a lovely way to live.

I have felt very good today so Im very happy with my Chemo although I do know it is hitting my Marrow Bone.

Infact I have asked how I will know I have had tto much and have become Toxic the answer from The USA Nurse is –you will see by the counts, we do expect delays and possible transfusions by cycle 4. Platelets are usually the deciding factor as we do not have a good way to replete them and a platelet transfusion only holds them for 72 hours. if you do well and it holds you for 6 months or so, it can always be revisited. Great to hear you continued good news on the battle lines

So that will be my guide line If I do get into  needing a blood transfusion after Round 4 -which starts next Friday I will rest -I promise.

Rays Blog http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/23/tuesday-60/

Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- Very Hot today hope there is a storm to freshen it all up

We did wake up at 4am and we were wide awake so got up.

Mornings are boring like that as it is to early to do the housework and to early to sit in the garden as I dont like waking the neighbours.

But slowly the world woke up and just as i was going to get a shower the electric went off as a workman thought it would be good fun to have a eltrical flash as he went through a cable. I sat and waited for the power to come back.

When It did I had a great shower.

Then my neighbour was cutting down a conifer that has grown over our boundary and she has a new fence to put up. I went out and we had fun taking it down so much so I cut a smaller one down and now thats got me going. Tomorrow I will get the electric cutters and do more. I asked Ray if he wants to help and he bought me garden gloves when we went to B&Q.

Lunch and then we went to Sainsbury and B&Q boy it was getting hotter and hotter. I felt funny as the heat got to me and after walking around B&Q so we sat under a large tree and I found a seat there. I realise how the chemo is making me weak.

I was able to get a trolley and just walked around Sainsbury and bought the items I was running low off.

All healthy eating, Im getting better at that.

Came back and rested until I had to do the dinner Turkey salad and new potatoes very refreshing with strawberries and chocolate mouse and so easy on a hot day.

They say we are having thunder storms tonight I do hope so as the rain might cool this.

We should have a baby royal to as poor Kate has been in labour all day. The press and the crowds are all in place so all we want is the great news of the baby here.

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Her is a good diagram Of Asbestos exposure

Rays blog http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/22/monday-49/

 

Living With Mesothelioma- My Diary- Chemo 3 week 3 is over and I went Camping.

Well we have been away camping and yet I had Chemo on Friday. Ray went to the Hopsital in the morning and he was signed off which we are over the moon with.

We then went to Hernebay and I stock the Motor Home stocked up for the weekend and we then traveled to The Park and Ride and Ray stayed with Louis and I went on the hospital bus to the Chemo dept.

I was pleased as I handed my book over and it is going to read by all the nurses. The head nurse came over to me and said it will be used as a training book. I was so pleased at that.

I had my chemo but gosh they were so busy my bleeper kept going in between time and I wanted to get away.

They are fully staffed but with trainies so it means it takes longer as each one has to be watched.

I finally gout out at 4.pm and managed to catch the bus.

We went straight to the site off Seven Mile lane thank goodness the roads were good.

Everyone was so pleased to see us again and we were able to sit in the group and have a great chat. We were asked all bout Rays heart and my Meso and where we were in the treatment.

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The Bush and Blackbird

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A game of Bat and trap which is a very old Pub game

Bat and trap is an English bat-and-ball pub game. It is still played in Kent, and occasionally in Brighton. By the late 20th century it was usually only played on Good Friday in Brighton, on the park called The Level, which has an adjacent pub called The Bat and Ball, whose sign depicts the game. Brighton & Hove City Council plans to start a Bat and Trap club based at The Level in 2013, as part of the Activities Plan associated with a £2.2m Heritage Lottery Fund and Big Lottery Fund-funded restoration of the park. http://www.brighton-hove.gov.uk/thelevel

Trap used in bat and trap

The game is played between two teams of up to eight players. At any one time, one team is batting and the other is bowling. The game involves placing a heavy solid-rubber ball, similar to a lacrosse ball, on one end of a “trap”, which is a low wooden box 22 inches (560 mm) long, 5 inches wide, and 5 inches (130 mm) high, on top of which is a simple see-saw mechanism. Each player in turn on the batting side hits the opposite end of the see-saw lever (the “striker”) with his or her bat, so as to propel the ball into the air, and then, using the same bat, attempts to hit the ball between two 7-foot (2.1 m) high posts situated 21 yards (19 m) away and 13 feet 6 inches (4.11 m) apart at the other end of the playing area, or “pitch”.

The bowling side stand behind and between the posts. If any of them catches the ball before it hits the ground the batsman is out. The batsman is also out if he or she fails to hit the ball between the posts at a height not exceeding 7 feet (2.1 m). After each successful hit, one fielder (the one whose turn it is to bowl next), returns the ball to the batting end by hurling, tossing, or bowling it back towards the trap, attached to the front of which is a 5-inch (130 mm) square target, or “wicket”, hinged at the bottom. If the bowler hits the wicket with the ball so as to knock it flat, the batsman is “bowled out”. If the bowler does not succeed, the batsman scores one run and continues to play. Once all the members of the first batting team are out, the batting and bowling teams change places and the game continues until all players on both sides have batted.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bat_and_trap

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I was watching Ray was playing he scored very well.

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The game is played very serious and I said it was like Midsummer Murders –game being played in the Pub in a village –really funny x

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We were at a Birthday party Saturday night and this camper had just come back from the USA and bought the guitar and boy could he strum and played true country music and sang alone . I asked if he knew Silver Thread and Golden Needles –he sang it for me and the Chairman said I was the first request he had ever heard. The singer had been a coal miner in the Kent mines at Snowdown Colliery.

They are all closed down now.  Snowdown Colliery, Kent

http://www.dover.gov.uk/kentcoal/exhibition/snowdown.asp

Our fridge packed up as we hadnt used it for so long so dirt blocked the jets, Ray was having a look and he was helped out by others that were asking. Whats up Ray. and before you know it they have everything out and I soon had a fridge working again. Thank you so much you lovely people xx

Read Rays blog he talks about it in detail.

http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/21/sunday-55/

I got through the weekend just great. When we pulled up I was tired so I had a snooze and woke up feeling good. saturday I felt weird but as the day went on I manged to enjoy the day.

This morning I was back to normal

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We took a stroll through the orchards where the apples are growing well.

By the time we got home I felt shattered but so pleased with myself it had been a lovely weekend.

I had an email from my GP who said Much better result than we realistically expected,  isn’t it?

 Keep up the positive attitude.  I’m sure it makes such a difference.
 Richard
IM very pleased Im making waves like this in the NHS but i do fear for the future as I havent found what next. 5th line must be in place but I have a few months to find it the space between chemo working and growth regrowing is getting shorter so I have to keep researching.

Living With Mesothelioma -My Diary- I thought today was going to be just another day —How wrong can you be .

Oh boy when I got  up today I thought today was going to be just another day! How wrong can you be.

Ray had to go to K&C Hospital to have a blood pressure monitor fitted for 24 hours.

The times we have had to go to the hospital between us. With both of us ill you just dont get time to yourself when it comes to appointments.

Back to the park and ride, Im sure the car knows how to get there on its own.  The Motorhomes that were all crowded in the Aires had all gone so the ferries and tunnel must have done a roaring trade early this morning.

We got off the bus and went to Cardiology where Ray had this monitor fitted.  It makes me laugh. it bleeps and then pumps up then bleeps as it goes down again. Im glad we aren’t going top the Cinema or anywhere else public as it is so embarrassing as it is so noisy.

We sat waiting for the hospital bus and this huge seagull was going from person to person looking for his lunch.

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Back home I made lunch yet another salad, Ray is moaning but he has to eat low fat and healthy so I win!!!

Then this afternoon I came into my computer to read my emails and there was one from the Hospital, clicked on it puzzled and there it was my SCN telling me she had got my results read and that  she was able to say these wonderful words –Just had a message —managed to get hold of your CT report. Good news.
CT shows partial response few lesions are slightly smaller and others are stable no new lesions seen.——-Whoopee 4th line Chemo is working —that is the GemCarbo Chemo

You look and you reread and then you realise you can say the words out loud. I told Ray and then rung my family. I also put it on facebook for the world to see.

It is great I will carry on with the Chemo knowing we have got the nasty again. I will see Xmas and New Year again and I can plan things again and stop living holding my breath that will I be able to plan and carry it through and do it.

My next door neighbour came round so I could say goodbye to his family as they are flying back to Italy today and he was so pleased to hear the good news.

His daughter gave us some Italian Chocolates ooooo naughty but nice xx

Made a great dinner of Gammon Steak new potatoes and yes oh yes !!! SALAD he! he!

It has been a good day Im very happy that I have taken the right pathway.

The bad part is this monitor of Rays is pumping up every half hour and that is going to go on all through the night. He looks like he is wearing a gun holster.

Rays Blog http://mesoandme.wordpress.com/2013/07/18/thursday-53/